Just a little idea...listen to this whilst reading the following...
A reminder to sink in
A way of allowing skin
To settle into space
To take you into grace
My recent post on doing Yoga every damn day received a lot of love in a yoga group I am part of in Facebook. I was excited that I had found something I could do daily that brought me back to myself and allowed me to lean into all that was wrong and everything that was right during the course of an entire year.
Yet a couple of weeks ago after a particularly deep backbend just after my year was up, I went into the shower and dropped something, went to pick it up and felt my back go. The pain was unbearable and like nothing I had ever experienced before.
I went to stand up and couldn't.
I had to make an emergency appointment at my mum's chiropractor who informed me the next day that I had trapped a nerve in my lower spine.
I was devastated. He advised me to simply do savasana as I had to be extremely careful of my spine.
After the second treatment I felt amazing and had no pain. In the absence of pain I went back to do my daily 8km walk with hubby and began 15 minute yoga sessions again.
I woke up today and was putting on my shoes to go for another walk and I felt the pain in my back come back, this time much worse than before.
Luckily I had a scheduled appointment with the chiropractor this afternoon. When I told him what had happened he reminded me that just because I didn't have pain, it didn't mean the trapped nerve was fixed (that will take twice weekly sessions for up to 6 weeks to heal).
I came home and wrote the above poem. I have to remind myself to sink in and allow rather than tighten up and deny.
I think we could approach everything we do with this reminder.
We can come from a place of hurt and sink in.
We can come from a troubled place and sink in.
We can be angry and sink in.
We can be happy and sink in.
We can be in the middle of an argument with someone and sink in.
We can go with something even if it feels painful and tight.
We are all trying to stay positive in a world where actually, things might not look so damn rosy. We can take ourselves to a bad space if we try too hard to always be looking at the bright side.
I'm not for one moment saying don't go with the awesome flow, I'm just saying that sometimes we need to go to a place of sadness and sink in and allow.
In that place we can heal.
I wrote a whole book on this...
Come over and say hi on my Facebook page and tell me how you might start to remind yourself to sink in.